Words will save me

And can you believe it?  Just as I pick myself up again, re-energise myself and my blog, finish my novel, begin my second, realise I have a really successful business, run my marathon, feel like I’m on top of the mountain after a long long climb……  my husband ends my marriage.

Whoosh! A massive gust of wind throws me over the edge. But you know what Life?  You know what? I’m still hanging on.  Your gust has blown me off the top but not back down. So I am not going to talk about that right now, because there is so much to write about how and why my marriage has ended so abruptly that I might crash WordPress with the volume of words I need to write. Either that or it’s another book… perhaps a trilogy. Perhaps a whole fucking library. Because this is some story. But it’s not for today.

word hug

Life’s wind is buffeting me but I am hanging on. Today I want to talk about my novel.  I finished it. And several people actually think it’s good.  Good enough to be sent to agents. Good enough to encourage me to hurry up and write my second. Last night I attended the Irish PEN Awards to honour an amazing woman writer (and so prolific she leaves me breathless) Eilis Ni Dhuibhne who spoke about the importance of words in our lives to enrich and support us, to teach us and guide us. And words will get me back up that mountain. Words that I will read (oh the pile of books beside my bed smile at me like friends I know they’ll be), and words that I will write. Words that I write for my day job, words that I write for fun and words that I write for my sanity. Life, you can blow me off course as much as you like, but I have an armory of words and they will always lead me home.

About Grin & Tonic by Alana Kirk

Bouncing into middle age armed with courage, ambition and a pair of tweezers (chin hairs for anyone over the age of 45 reading this) I am a writer with a mission: to redefine this midway point in my life when the last thing I want to do is hang up my high heels and become invisible. This is the end of the beginning, not the beginning of the end. A single mum to 3 fabulous girls, an author, and a fundraising consultant, both ends of my candle are on fire. As I enter this new stage of my life, I want to explore what it means for 'mid-aged' women today, who were promised they could have it all, ended up doing it all, and just do not identify with the traditional image of middle age.
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3 Responses to Words will save me

  1. Alana! I’m so pleased you’re back! Thanks for commenting on my blog. I came straight over. I’m stunned to read about your marriage. This sounds awful and particularly as it sounds as if you’ve had a tough time getting to the top of that mountain and now this. Thinking of you. How are your girls? So many questions. I’ll be back! xx

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  2. Cathy says:

    Oh my goodness! Hugs. I’ve been down that road once already, any support you need, feel free to contact me. Glad you are diving back into writing as a way to cope and be productive! Love to the girls.

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